I am Aliiiiivee!

Herrroooooooooo!

update by the end of the week I reckon.

I'm still alive and well...so far :)

me

It's time like these you learn to live again.

Hello readers and friends,

So it’s been a while and I keep promising updates but I just really haven’t been feeling creative in any sense recently.

I’ve had a tough few months and it started to get the better of me, I lost my Job, housemate moved out, broke up with Lindsay had a great addition to the family die and due to some of this I’m now in a rather large turmoil with finances and became a conflicted emotional wreck and stress head which nearly got the better of me but you know what? You hit rock bottom there is no way but up after that.

My ex-boss at the lovely Broadway turned out to be a tool of the biggest proportions, liked to just fire people for no reason or silly reasons and you can’t talk sense to the guy. He knows all and although the opening line of his great suck you in bullshit “nobody is perfect, everyone makes mistakes” made you feel he was going to be a great manager it quickly turned around. From things I witnessed in that place he was “perfect” and everyone else was a piece of shit, nobody was there for more than a month due to his behaviour, lack of direction and lack of any sort of training for anyone. He even sent me a great message about fucking up my chances of immigration if I didn’t get my hotel key and wristband back to him by 8am the morning after my birthday, Karma please sort this bitch out.

Jeremy (my flat mate) surprised most of us by making a conscious decision to move in with Belinda, all the best to those 2 is all I can say really! I think it’s good old Jez has made some commitment and wants to move on with his life although other people were shocked and hurt by the move, give it your best old pal.

I went out for drinks with Hayley and Liza ‘tother evening, was great to finally have a laugh and be around people who I now know care a lot, helped me put a few things in perspective and realise I have to struggle through to Christmas holidays when I can work my ass off and pay off some debts (although I have to beg borrow or steal $2000 by mid November for college or I’m out with only 5 months left to completion :( ) and just keep my mind open and look for every opportunity to better myself, It gets hard when you feel alone in a country miles away from people you really really know and that doesn’t understand you or you it but I suppose it’s one of life’s big lessons and will only make me stronger.

And that’s my mini update for now, I’d say I’ll blog more often, maybe I will but we all know it will be ages again before you hear from me :)

Peace and love to all

Lee

P.S. I also read this somewhere and it stuck in my mind "Love and hate are poweful emotional feelings, indifference is the lack of emotion therefore loves true opposite is indifference".

HTC Touch HD, Forget the Iphone!

I soooo want one!

oh and update coming soon.

Death comes to us all in the end.

I’m a bit drunk and as my Auntie Carols better half, Uncle Barry sorely died of a second heart attack 2 days ago which leaves me feling quite sad I'm contemplating (thank fuck for spell checkers)the fragility of life and how those you love and those you knew, and occasionally those you hardly knew but wished you learned more of but didn’t realise it until they went on to the next world affect or affected you in your life, also what is the next world?
Heaven? Hell? stoke on trent?

Philosophers have studied it for centuries and got no closer, scientists say that parallel universes and multiverses exist! Maybe that’s where our ‘Soul’ goes on to. Heaven moves you into the next dimension for a whole new experience and growth of the spirit , hell is failing and coming back and back again like a video game, dying only to start the level over and over until you get it right! Maybe that explains Déjà vu! Cos we have already lived this life and souls and spirits don’t adhere to father times laws as our fragile and small minds do, therefore we relive and make mistakes over and over looking for the goal before we can choose the next path.

Love is a fickle thing too, you get attatched to people and comfortable, tell them everything about yourself and they throw it in your face in arguments, I’ve done it myself and I kick myself for being like that. You then have a bit of hate for each other but love each other all the same. Partners are wonderful when they aren’t around but within an hour of them being home it goes back to arguments and fights about past problems and misgivings, it grates on your soul.Some people put up with it forever, some people work it out, and many move on. I still miss hanging around with some of the people I have called my 'better half' none more so than Lindsay and I'm sorry I had to do what I had to do. It just wasn't working at the time.

Anyway rantings over, I'm going to leave this and post it in the morning and laugh at myself :)

I need a holiday (still) and a new brain!

Wassup y'all?

Things have been a bit hectic recently for me with all this Ekka work and extra college crap that I've not had much time to myself recently and I think I'm starting to hate people in general.

The Rum post below can be completely disregarded, The price hike didn't deter anyone from drinking the stuff and as a result Ekka went off with a few bangs and tens of people being kicked out due to stupid behaviour, we're not talking funny stupid we're talking pissing on heaters, stools, tables and in plant beds, climbing marquee's and generally being disgusting idiots with no manners or any idea how to act in public.

Those idiots aside its been a good one this year, pub full to capacity most evenings and many many of the country folk have been kind and generous with tips and manners and telling us what good jobs we've been doing so for that I thank them as its made the busiest fortnight ever enjoyable and made the staff work happily together for the first time in ever.

After work last night I popped up to the Stepp Inn to see VNV Nation, bloody good band live I tell thee, a mixture of Irish, English and Germans and man did they work the crowds well, great time had by all, included myself as I talked to a funny little goth lady and she talked back in a broad yorkshire accent everytime I saw her around the place which kinda cheered me up for a couple of hours before I had to Stepp Out (ooooh good one) into the freezing cold and wander off home, its amazing how a couple of coopers can hit you when you get into the fresh and you haven't eaten properly all day, I dont think I managed to get 100m without walking into some inanimate object and telling it to get fooked, I'm sure one of them laughed at my ineptitude to navigate a perfectly flat and straight footpath. The best part was walking down to my flat as its very steep and then I have to go back up some steps, it was like an obstacle course for my poor tired and alcohol fuelled little brain so I gave in and kinda sat on each step in turn and shuffled down them before coming face to face with a possum and shitting myself and then shushing myself for the outburst. Realising it was cold on the floor where I lay drooling I dragged myself up inside and woke up this morning wearing everything I had on except one shoe which I found outside.

Great night.

Me.